I need a punching bag.

I'm feeling very stressed at the moment. Almost angry. I know it will only get worse if I don't get this out somehow, so I thought I would use my blog as an outlet tonight.

I really miss my family. Moving here to Muncie and starting college has been a big adjustment for me. I try to talk to my parents every day and ask my sisters how school is going for them. This helps keep my spirits up a little bit. We are a tight knit family, and it's hard for me to not think about them all the time. It's slowly getting a little easier; I know I'm growing up and I need to move on and do things for myself, but it still doesn't keep me from looking out for my family. Today has been especially difficult in keeping my mind off of them.

That is item number one on the agenda. Keep item one in mind while reading item two.

Item number two is a bit more complicated. Let's just say for the past year I have been kind of selfless. SELFLESS. Not selfish. Now I won't lie; I have my moments. But in all honesty, I gave up most of my senior year so I could concentrate on other things for other people. I didn't realize how much I missed out on last year until after I graduated. There were parties, games, bonfires, and movie trips that I consistently turned down because I was directing my attention towards making other people happy. Don't get me wrong; I have no regrets. If I could do it all over again I wouldn't change a thing (because when you love someone you make sacrifices for them). But, lately I have been feeling like that favor isn't being returned.

This probably doesn't make any sense to anyone. That's alright. I probably will never have a blog post centered around depressive emotions ever again.

Anyway, these two stress inducers combined accomplish nothing but make me want to bang my head against my desk and pull my hair out. I know I should be focusing on school, but it's hard to do when I have all this on my mind, AND I don't have a concrete major yet. Which brings me to another item...

I have no idea what I want to do with my life. All I know is:
      I love kids.
      I know a little about politics.
      I could set up some of the most amazing concerts ever. Period. Enough said.

Now, if anyone knows a career in which I could combine those skills, let me know.

After reading back through this... I DO feel better. A little. Maybe.

This is pretty much how I am all the time. Seriously.

Testing, testing...

So here is my first post on my new blog... (insert exciting phrase here).